How Could I???

Irreplaceable, she was

And that’s the cause of distress now

The heaven that I neared

When she brushed her

Fingers through my hair

When she laughed

At those not so funny jokes

When she grasped

My hands innocently at a crossing

When she enquired

During those depressing moments

Always the first and mostly the only one

When she wet my shoulders

For a lost cat or poor beggar

When she came running

Even as I neared the gate

When she cooked my fav

And watched me eat, with joy

When she ate it later

And cried like a child, at my plight and lie

When she slept on my shoulder

All through the night,

On the first day of her illness..

When she made me sleep on hers,

On the last day of it

Not a child any more

Cos she knew something more….

The heaven that I neared

Could never be re-lived

And that’s the cause of distress now

Cos here I am, nearing the same with you!

Did I love her less, or did she?

how do I forget the pain of hers, whenever you pass by?

Does not love come only once?

I see her in you

I live with her through you

My love of hers has brought her back

Only in a different physical form..

And all this I say, but to comfort me,

Yet the answer to my question

I still have not found

How could I love a second time???