Not an atheist
Cos it needs courage,
A sense of doubtless supremacy
And an unshaken confidence
Not a theist
Cos it needs faith
A sense of doubtless supremacy
And an unshaken belief
It is in the midst I stand
In neutrality I so detest
Yet conclusion less search
And countless queries..
At the temple I stand
With all effort at devotion
Yet an uncertainty at the bottom
Eyes closed I pray, tightening at the doubts..
Guilt conquers
At my absence there
But it is conscience
That suffers by presence
Who am I cheating
The Lord or me
If He is uncheatable, the doubt is gone
But that’s where the doubt lies
God exists yes
But I want to feel Him
Cos Godliness is
But a feeling, truest and intense
Is it the same as the joy
That embraces notes of music
Slipping through the heart
Into the depths of the soul?
Is it the same as the ecstasy
Of words that spin a poem
Wrapping my all
With its completeness?
Is it the same as the tears
Pure and sweet
That love exudes
With its perception?
With every experience
I get filled
What fills I don’t know
But clarity I do gain
Life is but a search,
The journey of learning
Questions are the beginning
And Lord is the destination!!
